2018 has been the worst year of my life. I was in hospital, had 2 major emergency surgeries in the space of 5 months, have basically been in recovery all year and in limbo waiting to move house. I was fast asleep in my hospital bed ill, tired and weak when 2018 officially rang in, Happy Fucking New Year. Every other year before that I’ve been at a party with friends getting stupid drunk, dancing, singing and laughing until the early hours. I didn’t even get a new years kiss this year. So in my head it wasn’t real. 2018 never began. My 2018 hadn’t started yet.
Not to sound dramatic but this year feels like time wasted. Time I’ve missed out on and now I’m having to play catch up. But in the last couple weeks I’ve felt much more myself, more capable physically and mentally. I’ve got a huge work project that I’ve finally started after months and months of putting off because of illness and surgery and my head not being in the right place. But now my head is in the right place and I’m getting my teeth stuck into new projects and oh my god it feels so good!
My year has finally begun! I feel present, I feel excited, I feel productive!
But there’s only 2 and a half months left in this year so I have to make them count. This is it, my home stretch to make sure 2018 wasn’t a completely shit year. I want to build enough momentum that I can go into 2019 strong and healthy ready to take on whatever comes next. I know from the outside it may seem like bullshit, you might look at my blog or my instagram and think “but you’ve achieved so much this year!” And that is sort of true. I went to Buffer Festival in Toronto, I was on live national TV, I’ve done some pretty amazing photoshoots! But all year it’s felt like I’m treading water, that things are just happening to me.
Now it’s different. Since getting back from Toronto I have been full steam ahead! I’m in my new flat, I’ve got my home office. I’m typing this at my desk with an actual keyboard connected to a screen (not just on my laptop). I’ve started using a new to do list app (I’ll let you know how it goes). Whereas before it felt like things were happening to me, I’m now the one making decisions. I feel back in control of my life.
So here’s what I’m doing for my home stretch of 2018 to make it count! If you’ve had a hard year or just a bit of a meh year I encourage you to join in. Post what you’re doing for the last 2 and a half months of 2018! I’ve just come up with this now as I’m typing haha. Use the hashtag #2018homestretch to share what you want to achieve before the end of the year and we can encourage each other!
- Run 5k! You may have seen on my YouTube channel I’ve started a personal fitness project called “Surgery to 5k”.
- Do Vlognukah! It’s my Jewish version of Vlogmas but this year I’m challenging myself to actually daily vlog dun dun duuuuun I’ve never done it before! So look out for daily videos 3rd-10th December!
- Secret project deadline! I hate keeping secrets but hopefully it won’t be a secret for much longer, the actual deadline is mid-January but I want to challenge myself to get it done before Christmas.
- Read 8 more books! Every year since 2015 I’ve set myself the challenge of reading 50 books. Every year I’ve failed. The most I’ve ever read was 38 (in 2016) and the least was 31 (in 2015). Currently in 2018 I have read 23 books. If I can read 8 more books between now and 31st December I’ll have at least matched my lowest score since I started counting. I just need to pick which 8 books they’ll be… you can follow me on Goodreads for updates.
And you know what, I’m going to stop there. Any more than that and I’m afraid I’ll fail. Realistic goals people! I would love to hear your #2018homestretch goals on social media or in the comments here. Let’s do this!