It’s happening. People have told me that I’m too young to be going through a quarter life crisis. However, I think I’m too old. I’m 23 now and if this is one quarter of my life than I’m assuming that I’m going to live until I’m 92. Doubtful, very doubtful.
But the ‘quarter life crisis’ has been coined to describe people in their 20s who have NO F***ING CLUE WHAT TO DO WITH THEIR LIVES. I have been having trouble with this recently and so I just wanted to vent, tell you my symptoms and maybe give you some solutions.
I actually really enjoy my job. Being a freelancer is awesome but I don’t have a lot of money. I’m making things up as I go along and I have no idea what I’ll be doing in six months time. I am terrifyingly aware that my success in my chosen field relies heavily on being relevant. What if one day no-one cares about me and then I have to start from scratch and find a whole new career? Also, I have a new desire to start exploring new forms of content like short films or documentary web series. But I have no idea where to start and even less of a clue if I’ll be any good at it.
I have not been able to maintain a long term serious relationship for four years. Sometimes it’s been my choice, sometimes I’ve messed up, sometimes they’ve messed up, sometimes it’s been mutual. But every time, it doesn’t work out. Don’t get me wrong, I am very happy with my choices and my relationship status but it has only been in the last few months where the dangerous thought of “is there something wrong with me?” has popped into my head. Go away! I am perfectly fine! I made a whole video about this kind of pressure.
There are other things too like family relationships; realising you may not have much time left with them and you haven’t spent enough with them so far. Friendships; making friends as an adult is hard. I have no idea how to do it. Your living situation; maybe you’re still at your parents or maybe you live in a shit hole and you’re blowing all your savings on rent.
Here is how I’m solving my quarter life crisis: running away. Next month I am going on holiday to Japan and South Korea and I can’t wait to get some good distance away from everything to give myself the headspace to put everything into perspective.
Are any of you guys experiencing the same thing and how are you dealing with it? Comment below!